Moody Day

I always try to fill my days with happiness, and laughter. I think I am strong enough to be able to carry my daily routines, and yet this morning I cried silently watching a mom played with her 4 year old kid....I saw them at the elevator in Bethesda station, and it reminds me of how I am longing to have a child of my own, in my age that is not young anymore...

I can have everything, an ideal career, husband who cares deeply for me, a loving family, but yet, the thought of not being able to have a child of my own still haunts me...I thought I can be that strong when it comes to facing my reality of not having a baby yet...I thought I am a fighter, but yet I was devastated seeing a happy mom with her kid..

I could not say that life is not fair...Life is fair, is that, not all people could deserve the most....

If I am given the options, I may end my career after the post....dunno...lets see whats written in the stars....